-Your love is all i wanted-

.Friday, September 28, 2007 ' 2:10 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

the word "trust"

3.30le..i am still update my blog..wat the most important in a relationship..to me is the word call trust..once tis thing has lost..it hard for each other to believe wat each other said..no matter how lies he may tell me..cause i noe 1 thing is that i love him..i will trust him..i think noe that somehow someday..i am really scared at home..didn't go out..esp..this few day..got to believe a girl at home telling herself..he is at home..he is at home..wait for his call..is like 12 plus..my brain keep telling me..forget it he sleeping..but my heart wanted to wait till 2..then it got to believe that he sleeping..is not i don't believe him..he will contact more girl..study n working..his freedom time also more than me..today did happen something..just because of 1 guy wanted to join back..he don't trust me..actually i also don't nod how to make him believe me..even use bus kncok me till dead le..i am also a girl i need a guy to take care of me..when i am sick..listening ear..hug me n tell me..don't worry..no matter wat i alway by your side..i remember that the most nicer i like u..was when we first time met..he tell me..the most nicer i love u..was that he was down..he scold me..he told me that tis "actually i really love u alot.." the happier outing was..last tue..we went out really like a couple..n i remember i went to his house..we went downstair to buy ice cream..all the way he was holding my hand..this may make me look silly..but this is wat my heart is thinking..actually the necklace he still did not noe..if he were to read my blog..he will nod tis thing..y did i suddenly said about tis..today i noe 1 more secret..tis is wat i never though he will do..go to her friends friendster..saying a girl cute..yes..i am jealous..1 i was the one who add him at friendster..he never once view my page..never leave me testimonal..somemore saying the girl cute..won't i be sad..if i not busybody i will not noe tis..i was sad tis..he will spent time on people friendster..not mine..so i won't even said my blog..i just want a photo of me n him..i noe it will not post in friendster..that is only my wish...

.Sunday, September 16, 2007 ' 2:25 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

My first post that is not using my com..

haha..guess where i am..ya..i am at my class chalet..using ben yap com to update my blog..quite sleeply..haha..quite busy today..hmmm.he today sent me to my chalet..at firat we went to pump patrol..after that he call me to get off from his bike..i thought wat happen..thn he took out his phone to take photo of his bike meter..there stated 2999km(i think)..then after 1km..he called me to get off the bike..take another stated 3000km..diao..that wat my mind think but i am very happy when he sent me to chalet..

.Thursday, September 13, 2007 ' 1:41 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

A beinging of my life..

A new chapter of my life..y will i said that..after all these quarrel..ya ya..i return back the $50..not beacuse that she return me before..is that this thing should be only me n her..but this thing involved to many people..so wat her bf wanted to talk to me nicely..no matter wat the truth is..people will still help her..her bf her friend her sis her parent..they are their love one..so helping her is the truth..like wat i think we rite who wrong..most important is i am not guilty wat i have done..no one give me a chance to explain to them..n i only have 1 mouth..how to fight back with so many people..i will only said tis once n for all..yes she did message me that telling me that tell me that she return me..that was july/aug..i lent her money was on may 19..after my class chalet..she say every month she is goin to return to me..so by rite..i should be around june after her for the money..when july/aug she said i return..i ask her when she told me it was on may..i ask her when i lend her she say it was april..april i was having chalet how could i lent..nvm..ask her which day..she don't noe ask her where she say tm..at the point of time i though i really return to her..but luckily is i found my bank statement..i was on may 19..y i will lent her..i noe i when to interview with her on april 30..we met sing n jas..i was booking chalet..i lent her because i see her having a new job..when she get her first pay..sing ask me go out..i was thing..wat the hack..got pay still haven return..she had her second pay n that was the time when she quit..she told me her pay is not enough..when i brought up to her tis issue..she say before that..when..that time she does not even had a job how she return..i told sing about tis..i did..but is she helping me..NO..SHE DID NOT..nvm..suddenly they never talk it..her mom told me tis thing she will help her..ask me not to tell her..but when her sis transfer to me..on that day she ask me to return her the money..i was thinking how will she noe..yes..we quarrel again..old topic brought up..but i ask her again when she return to me..she said it was at amk..so should i believe her..someone who cannot even remember the place..i return to her sis because like too many people involved..but who is helping me..i can say no one..who will believe me..none of us have an eye witness..my friend ask me to record wat she have say asking when she return to me..then make a police report..i noe tis is a hash way..but they keep calling making me insane..if i will to make police report..i got eye witness that i pass her the money..n even evidence..but she was my 6 years friend n her mom treat me so good..JUST BECAUSE OF $50..FRIENDS SCOLD ME BITCH FUCKER..wasting me my bill..involved so many innocent..even people i don't noe..worth it ma..make a police report no matter wat i will not be the lost..i really don't want to make tis issue big..i never want to drag my parent into tis..$50 $50..is that alot..i transfer tis back..the money going to her pocket or not..is that important..i have done my part..I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE THAT U BORROW FROM ME MONEY..YET RETURN SO LONG..U STILL CAN YELL AT ME..N FIND FRIEND YELL AT ME..FINDING MORE FRIENDS TO QUARREL..I DO AMIRE U THAT U STILL HAVE THE FEELING TO SCOLD PEOPLE WHEN I AM TRYING T HELP U FORM ALL TIS..N A BIG THANK U TO U..TO NOE WAT MY FRIEND IS LIKE..i noe i never acc u all..but all my friend noe..nite time i giving to him..only my off day to my friends family..i also never give it to him..i don't mind 1 month meet 1 times..more topic to talk..just..no one understand how i going through..badly ill see doctor for twice just midnight..forget it..all these is past..quarrl nvm..once scold me bitch or so..no longer friends..even my mom call me to get away from them..now is then the new beinging of my life..

.Friday, September 07, 2007 ' 12:56 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

A secret..

Let me tell u a story..there is tis girl..she n her guy..the guy brought her necklace..it was her birthday present..even though it was not expensive..but the girl treating like that was her precious gift..after a few months..the guy brought her a new one..ask her to take that off..he say even u want to throw away also can..but tis girl no matter wat..she don't want to throw..that day the girl wear the new necklace n went out with her guy..after a few day..she realise that the necklace was lost..she was about to go work..but no matter wat..she used her 50min to find..she did no manage to find it..she was also late for work..she told her guy..she noe that the guy will not be that happy to hear that..the guy did not really get angry..n ask her if she want to buy the new one or other..but tis is wat the girl said "no matter wat..the necklace cannot replace by other thing.." when the girl had her off day..she went around to find the same necklace..she guess that the girl will brought it from the working place..she went into the store..she search high n low..manage to get find the same necklace..she brought it..n told the guy.."I found the necklace n send to polish.." y did she say send to polish..because the necklace was brand new..she nod that the guy will be happy..but in her heart..tis is how she feel.."The one is the same design but the meaning of tis necklace is gone..i don't want him to be angry..i just want him to be happy..nothing can be replace.."tis is wat she think i her heart..she wanted to keep tis as a secret.. "Issit she a stupid girl?" tis is wat she think..

.Wednesday, September 05, 2007 ' 8:33 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

A big problem..n..

yesterday had a big fight..but i came from a small problem..peopel think that was childish..but i don't think so..really was it my fault..am i not giving him face..am i not supporting him..haiz..is not important anymore..i message him today..ask him if he want me to transfer out..he must me go out talk..we went to amk hub..don't noe y i should be angry..but i see him..the way he behave..i no longer get angry..is like he forget thing very fast..we went to catch a movie..after the show..he did said sorry to me..but the time i feel the sorry is no longer important le..cause i alreay forget about it..don't wish to quarrel with him..my heart feel terrible..