-Your love is all i wanted-

.Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ' 11:21 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Am i selfish?

Wat zac say might be the true, i am very selfish if i end off this relationship because of my birthday..maybe i should not end it..just treat it as how much he like me ba..after all, it still contain sentimental..today wat i learn also help me in my decision..wat thing or person is priceless to me..some might think is hp or other stuff..but to me..u r priceless..which i think once i leave u..i will really regret it..and i cannot get the thing i want back..

.Wednesday, April 23, 2008 ' 10:28 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

21 more days to go...

I have been waiting for these day to come..to end this or to continue..is that day to decide..my fate..how much u r there for me..is not that u never done for me anything..is just there sometime i noe that u r there for me..sometime u r just not there..i just all alone..i just scared that this test u will not pass and wanting me to leave u..i really don't noe how to let go..really..if can i really that i can be 'lucy' cannot remember everyday i do..want u to make me remember you..i really want to make this decision n stay with it n not think about ither thing again..have u ever read my blog before..if yes..do u noe how i feel? i no need u to put the same thing and effort..just want u to remember and spent it with me..the problem is..can u remember my birthday? if u got read my blog u will nod

.Sunday, April 20, 2008 ' 1:49 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

I really don't noe wat to do

A moment i start to get trust, it begin again. Is like do u noe how long i need it? Do u noe how pain issit..i nod u care..not i don't mean to lie to u..but think of my shoe for once..just once..ask u all one question..when u lost a special person give u something...u wanted to find badly issit because u are scared that the person will scold u or are u really treasure the thing? i rrally hurt me when u say is scared because of the scolding..it being long time since i write a happy post..i really wish my birthday no need the same contribution..just want..i reallu just want u to remember and spent it with me...how sure can i be..i really don't noe..will the day be happy or not..it up to u..

.Thursday, April 17, 2008 ' 2:07 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Today lesson..

Today lesson is not easy at all..till now i still in cracking my brain..cannot use science..if want to use science we need to have 100% sure..haiz..is not easy to be in here..everyone is like giving up..presentation presemtation..forever no end..but daily grade not bad

.Wednesday, April 09, 2008 ' 12:43 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

sweet

Everything at the beginning is sweet..in his world - money mom work study friend..where is me? is sweet in the beginning but when is the end..it alway...hmmm...if like this..how i wish i can be like lucy..only can remember 1 day the other day forget about it..

.Saturday, April 05, 2008 ' 12:08 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

i wish that..

I am very scared..as the day come nearer..the more i am scared..i really wish that he could pass this test..that the only thing i really want from him..but really got no confindence that he will even remember my birthday..but neither do i want lose this relationship..this is y i nowaday keep giving him cold shoulder..i very scared i not use to it..if really something bad happen..i just wish that i have 1 day break where no one disturb me..i am very tierd to contribute anything to anyone..so wat i write all this..he also will not see..

.Tuesday, April 01, 2008 ' 1:34 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

My birthday

I am really very scared..my birthday is coming soon..i am very scared..since he never come read my blog..i will say it out..i using my birthday to test him how importance i am to him..he is someone who alway forget thing..if he can remember n celebrate with me..at least i noe that in his heart..i still have a place...if he forget..i also don't noe wat to do le..no hint will be given to him..btw i am really veery scared..but tis is the only confindence..cause during his sch holiday..i already tried my best to take the same off day with him..but mostly end up going out with his mom..n that time when we went to watch movie he using the jacket to cover his face like don't want to let people see..n nowaday go out there is bound to have something on..that lead to go home..i just have the bad uncomfortable insurce feeling that i will lose him anytime..n that y sometimed i dare not to get too close to him..cause i scared that 1 day when he leave me.. cannot take it..at least this thing can tell me i still have a place..but now i really don't have confindence that he will remember..really..but i don't wish to hint him..