-Your love is all i wanted-

.Thursday, July 31, 2008 ' 12:11 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Everything is changing..

Something watever u say to me..it might be the truth..but i don't noe y my heart does not want to accept the ans..u have change..the love for me seem to be not there..it fading..i can feel it..i was so sad..i cried at home..i start to be a crazy person in class..to make myself forget everything..let my time pass faster..but after sch..i still alone..my mind tend to run wild..start to think negative..y i will have all these want to know..when i cried today..my mind is thinking my name has change to "share"..he have not been wearing the couple ring for around 1 month..he don't care about me at all..sem 1 going to be over..the promise have not came true..my oversea trip might not be a success one..i feel so embarrass a girl ask a guy to go oversea with him..worst till..i don't noe y i just have this feeling that there is some one coming into this relationship..which is third party..or maybe i am the third party..he was scared that people will say he neglect me..but who the hell will say that this relationship is an enclose one..who will know we are together..now i understand y did my grandma change into my dream..she ask me not to be sad..i noe that all i can do is to be strong..try my very best to strengthen tis relationship..

.Tuesday, July 29, 2008 ' 11:54 PM Y

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leaving this place..

Actually i wanted to leave Singapore badly with darling..darling u may not know the reason..then reason is simple..i wish to go somewhere that no one know..we don't need to find anything from anyone..yesterday dream of grandma..she consoles me not to be sad and she will alway protect me and be my gurdian angel..darling seem trouble..unwilling to tell me..hope evrything is find for him..dear..love ya..miss ya

. ' 9:52 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Happy 18th month anniversary Darling..yesterday was our 18th..time fly really fast..yesterday he went to meet me at hoguang point..went to eat KFC..a short one then he left..send him to the car park because he went to johor to pump petrol..that y he kind of tired..for me..i also very tired..alot of things have happen to me..did not really have enough of sleep..will update soon..everyone take care..love ya darling (“,)

.Thursday, July 24, 2008 ' 9:23 PM Y

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Dear girl..RIP..

RIP
Loo Yee Wen Jerlyn
(27.02.1989-22.07.2008)
this year 19..
Girl..today we sent u for your last jounery..
hope that u are able to rest in peace..
we are sad to see u like this..
alot of things i nod u haven done..
we even plan to have class outing this sat..
but i believe that the truth will be out one day..

. ' 12:06 AM Y

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Good bye my dear friend..Yee Wen

You will always be remeber by us..today went to your wake..we was sad to see u..i remeber i last saw you when u was with ur friends at amk hub..till now..it seem to be like a dream..all of us hope that this is not happening..Good bye..my dear friend...RIP..

.Tuesday, July 22, 2008 ' 11:45 PM Y

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Rest in peace, Yee Wen

It..was..just like a dream..pls slap me tell me it the truth..today class 5/1 of 2006..has lost a good friend..her name was Yee Wen..she is also counted a joker in the class..she have left this world..hope that u will rest in peace..u will always remember by me and by us..we was like so sad to heard the news..in the morning..sean was so happy telling me he pass his driving test..after that he call me and broke this news..that she has just pass away..got into a car accident..it was like too sudden..darling was beside me..i almost cried again..my mind just go empty when going back to class..this few years..see friends and family passing away..from tis i learnt to treasure people around me..tml going to the funeral not going to school..think tml alot of people will be crying..even for me..darling..i am sorry..too surprise that u came down to look for me today..but did help u..i will help u..if i can tml..I am sorry, darling..

.Monday, July 21, 2008 ' 4:21 PM Y

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confusion..

"Day no 11 darling having heal his heart"..everything seem to been change after the quarrel..darling does not seem to like to go out with me or talk to me..i noe that we will not watch movie..nowaday the movie is all like "non-human" movie..understand?? so miss him..never really go out..don't even noe fri go out issit counted as going out..went to eat le..find bluetooth..then chat at house downstair..haiz..everything just change..miss watching movie..miss going out..miss him so much..haiz..

.Friday, July 18, 2008 ' 9:33 PM Y

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Today went to meet darling..he hurt himself..quite badly hope that he is fine..really hope god..next time pls put all his pain at me in instead of him..today went out with him..he seem to change..he look like sad and depress over his life..n use his happiness to cover it..i wish that i can help..but don't noe what can i do..i feel useless..nothing i can do for him..i was thinking if really one day he could found someone that make his life happy..treat him better than me..understand him more than me..most important thing..he also like her..i wish he will leave me n be with the someone instead..it is not because i don't love him anymore..is i want him to be happy..i will feel sad to leave him..n i don't wish to leave him..but i just want him to be happy..i will do anything for him as long as he is happy..in my heart i always love him..he is someone..who taught me alot of things..someone that make my life happy..enjoy my life with him..someone i spent my 1 and a half years with and someone who i love the most..the guy i really like the most..but i always make him angry..i really want him to be happy..but i don't nod if i am that girl that can make him happy and that girl he really want to be with forever..but i really hope/wish that i am the one..Darling..I love u always..u r always in my heart..always i wanted to be with forever..

. ' 12:15 AM Y

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take care darling..

Actually i nod that darling are still angry with me..all i can do is to wait..darling..take care..i nod it really hurt u when the bike fall..u sping your back and your hand again..got cut on leg and hand..take care..really worry for u..take care..hope everything will be fine for me..dear god..let all his pain and problem come to me..i don't want to see him get hurt again..pls..punish me instead of him..put all the pain on me..i rather be the one to spring my back..my hand and leg..be the one to injury and get hurt..

.Wednesday, July 16, 2008 ' 10:53 PM Y

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Finally

I finally wait for this day..i get to see darling..but i still miss you..you seem to look more better looking than last time..really..is like 1 week plus never see you..today enjoy myself with you darling but then..the time we get to see each other was short..i was thinking "how to make our relationship better?"..very scared that there will other girls outside snatching you away from me which I don't noe as u start to look more handsome lor..some more u are a sociable person..seem to have alot of girl-friends..but I believe you and myself..nothing going to break me down..going to be 18th months le..time passes so fast..alot of things are not done with you..want to go oversea with you darling..but i very scared that you will be boring with me if we go together..sem 1 also going to finish le..the promise of the riding home haven come true..but I will wait..know that you have been busy nowaday with his final year project..still got 3 weeks..wish that all your unhappiness come to me..your stress also come to me..Darling..I really love you..pls don't ever leave me again..

All the nightmare keep happening-work, friends, darling, school, family..wish the nightmare be gone and darling u can be with me forever..

A message to Darling
I know that you have been thinking that you have been neglecting me, last time I was even upset when my name in your phone is still "share" and you have not change, which always make me think of stupid things and ended up quarrel. But truly speaking, all these is the past already and I really don't mind it at all. I still remember you said that you can wear the ring everyday but that does not mean that you love me. I don't want to quarrel with you anymore. I feel so miserable after I quarrel with you over small things. I am really not angry and I don't mind that we only get to see each other once a week. If you are busy it ok to meet only once a week, but I hope that you could do the same thing as I do. I hoping that whenever you are, whatever you do and where ever you are, at least I am in your heart. A place in your heart. Like me, in school, in class, with friend, at home or shopping, even though you are not with me, you are the only one person that I always think, the only one in my heart. If I am given another chance to choose, I will still want to choose you to be my bf, still want to be your gf. Wish that I can be the one to continue the journey of our life together, stay with you forever. I Love You.

. ' 12:02 AM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Day 6

Day 6 without seeing darling..I never nod that time is very hard to pass when u r alone..1 min slowly 1 min..but whenever i with u..the time pass so fast..everyday cannot sleep..feel so miserable then must act crazy in front of the class..just help myself not to think..people must be thinkiing..y still go on when the relationship is like tis..i don't noe..just that i nod there is a feeling..when can we go out..1 week of cooling..1 more day then we will get to see each other..or still have to wait..will he love for me not the same like last time..i really don't want tis relationship to fade away or don't wish to see it end..

1 more day to go..i very scared to face him..

.Tuesday, July 15, 2008 ' 1:59 PM Y

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alone..

Day no 5 without darling..today is a boring day..computering agin..morning just have UT..UT suck..finally saw darling while pass him the ear piece..but it was just less than 1 min..then went off..miss him so badly..don't noe when then can go out with u..don't noe we will still be together..my face still hurt..everyone ask me to cabot..watch the stranger..but i did not..scared u scold me..n i hope that i can meet u..but can i? Class left 9 people..so boring..Miss ya so so much..

.Monday, July 14, 2008 ' 9:07 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Thank darling..

Thank darling..i noe u treat me good..i nod u wanted to come my house bash my bro..but i don't want because of me..u two got hurt..esp u darling..i don't want you to have any harm..ya..today kanna bash by my bro 3 times on my face..it hurt..becuase he scolded my mom n i scolded him back then kanna bash..btw darling..wat ever u say..already touch me..thank..i promise if tis thing happen..i call ya..

. ' 1:25 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

it a miserable day..

Without seeing darling for 4 days..I have to thank kyser..zac..and 2 nad..think you guys got a shock when i suddenly busted out..it kind of sad..but i nod u are under alot of stress..i wish i could help u..really..but i guess i put more pressure to u..hope everything is fine for u..1 week of cooling down..if i could turn back time..i rather that day run away from class..should not say that..these 4 days is a miserable day for me..alone..got scolded from people..but i don't feel any pain..because without u..i feel more pain..u take care..love ya always..

.Friday, July 11, 2008 ' 8:56 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

issit the end of our story..

I don't want it to be like this..I still want to want to be with u..i don't noe wat i really say wrong today..i was happily finding u for lunch..all my friend knew that..but we never get to see each other more than 10 min..I don't noe wat say that make u so angry..i noe say "i will not slim down on my leg if u don't want study math.." this statement can make u so angry until u need to kick the rubbush bin..i was really sacred..u just leave me like this..just walk away..is this the end of our story..if it my wrong..i will change..i will hear..but the problem is..i don't even noe wat i do wrong..i say sorry about yesterday thing..u already forgive me..wat more u want..i totally lost..worst till is wat..i sch quarrel..my class lesson haven end..have to do presentation..worst today is on conflict..between one and another..i was sad..don't noe how to present..YAYA..I HAVE A QUARREL WITH MY BF..CAN..HAPPY..STUPID TOPIC..our 18th months coming..i wish to be with him..

. ' 12:24 AM Y

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It is a matter i handle it

I don't noe why suddenly think that way..maybe today hong kong drama affect me..i afraid of losing everything esp u..failure gf..cannot help him in math..got feeling that everytime we go out..he seem to look very boring whenever with me..we always does not know where to go..i am suck in my sch work..suck with work..suck with friends..everything..i scare of this and that..so down..always myself crazy to make myself cheer up..cover my unhappiness..sometime i am a selfish person..never really care how darling feel..I am really sorry darling if u can read this..

.Thursday, July 10, 2008 ' 10:56 AM Y

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just like a sotong..

Yesterday we wanted to watch the stranger..thank to me..see the wrong timing..not timing..is see wrong date..the last show was at 7 plus..9 plus one only today then have..end up watching 21..is about black jack show..quite nice..hope darling u r not angry about it..sometime i think that u r hiding thing from me..i really don't noe..feel so so left out..alone..u r not there when i need u..miss you..hope that u can pass ur math with flying colour.

.Wednesday, July 09, 2008 ' 4:14 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Hancock..

Yesterday when to watch movie with him..ya for sure..he late for the movie..miss around 5 to 10 min of the show..did enjoy the movie and enjoy the time together..not use to it sitting on your new super 4 bike..alway need to hold on the thing(if i not wrong is the pump pertrol)..at miss ya..i don't noe wat my heart is thinking..

.Monday, July 07, 2008 ' 8:29 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

It matter on..why should i..

Yvonne..y must u always get angry..i still want make contribution to u..i don't nod..how much u really love me..abit of love..just love..love me alot..some time..u really really love me alot..when everything is done..no one around..i nod nowadays u r busy with ur work..ur super 4 bike..selling ur old bike..i nod that u think we are together for 17 months plus..it must be stable..ya it is stable..just lack of excitement..that all..things like slowly turn up to be like boring..but is true that i still love u alot..because of u i can give up everything..i nod u can't do it for me the same way..it ok..i just want to noe..how much u really love me..actually it is also not that importance..hehe..most importance thing to me is as long as u love me can le..u have no time for me is ok..as long as i am in your heart..everything will go back to normal when u r stable with ur job..n sold ur old bike..just have to wait..i am very sure i will be stable..will not quarrel with u..as quarrel will solve everything..love ya always darling..sorry if i treat u will "cold"..miss u so badly..don't angry if u see this..i still love u..don't noe wat got into my mind..don't mean it..i just scared of lossing u..take care..

.Sunday, July 06, 2008 ' 11:37 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

confuse..

I don't noe how much u really do love me..today never attend the birthday party..there is a reason..a person which cannot be presented as ur gf..99.9% will quarrel..u do really mind people noe ur realtionship..last time i understand..but now u r no longer under there..wat u still mind..don't noe..darling change bike le..into super 4..he like the new old..but he also very sad selling the old one..due to he need cash as 2 bike expense high..I search yesterday finally found the post that he post to sell his bike..he seem sad..Darling..just want to tell u..how much i love u..search until 3am for your post..but how much u really love me..i noe u noe my blog address..but i don't noe if u even read how i feel..u noe i wanted to do alot of things with u..but seriously..am i someone that really boring..

.Thursday, July 03, 2008 ' 2:43 PM Y

& your love is all i ever wanted

Dear diary part 2..

Today i am very down..i don't noe how much u really love me.."a boring gf" tis word keep poping up in my mind..never nod that i am really boring..maybe tis sun i should not even go..i noe that my heart will really be upset..after all..i am still some one very boring..i noe u ask me not take the thing very hard..i am not taking it very hard..but it is something which u say out..so some how it already affect u..that y make me very sad..in front of me u never find thing from me..but something u hide from me..i do really noe..but just don't want to quarrel with ya..i am tired to talk anymore..just want to find way to build bad this relationship..
U are not here..u will never noe..if u are here..can u pls tell me wat can make us feel less boring..i beg u pls..need not put ur name down..

.Tuesday, July 01, 2008 ' 11:15 PM Y

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hmmm..

Darling, nowaday have a good chat ya..at sch yesterday..even never talk much..but somehow u spent time with me..but after all..i still someone who cannot be seen as ur gf..i don't noe y..and choose not to ask u y..ya take care..nowaday u r very moody..love ya always..Just thinking..do u ever view my blog..if yes..can u at least leave message..it ok if u don't use ur name to leave the message..